where the heart desires,
we follow
our dreams
our hopes
our aspirations
our love

the heart has no discrimination,
it only has desire
desire to be with you

the premonition that there can be someone else
who is capable of loving me more
more than my self
has made me euphoric

where do we find love,
love that gives us happiness,
makes us go mad
makes us do thing
which are insanly possible
keeps us awake
changes me in to a child
whos only desire is to be with you

i am what i am
but a pebel on the shore
a boat
at drift
a mountain
a rift
in animate
dark
a hunter
a shark
hungry
for love
my love
it is you

Death

In our life we are made to believe death to be an enigma.
when I expressed my wish to write something about death , I was asked how I would be doing it since I dont have any experience , I should die first.
so I did .
Ignorant are the people who don't understand the simplicity in the cycle of life and death.
since I am only wanting to write about death here I will keep aside the life.
I am a very simple person, as such i only see simplicity in complexity.
death for me is just end of life.
We live only once , but die more than once, b'cause life is not one, but a whole made of number of parts .
Each time that part of our life dies so do we die with it.
Our childhood, our schoollife, our teenages, our memories, every thing has its own life , and it ends in its own time, bringing death to it and thus to us.....

wish

I wish you the same
as you wish for me
you wish me one
I will wish you three
So, wish me some thing really nice
like i could be skeing on lunar ice
drinking hot coffee on top of everest
where all my worries come to a rest
I could fly on my own
then I could be all alone .
If this is what you wish for me
and wishes are for free so I will-
wish you three

fly

I wish to fly so do all,

but today is not my call.

Some day may be I will fly,

when my plans strat to imply.

Unitl then I must wait,

till the fish gets the bait.

One day when i will grow my wings,

I will be in action and i will swing,

Then I will fly to the sun ,

until my wing's burn.

To the ground i will fall

Untill and again comes my call.

friend

you are a friend, one would like.
you are a rose in the bed of spike.
you are gentle you are nice.
like walking in desert and finding ice.
you are tough you are smart.
like Monalisha tha work of art.
you are dashing you are cool
this are just words don't be fool.
:P

First Step

this is a step I have taken.
from a very long sleep i have woken
I need wisdom I need sight
here comes day, bye bye night-
until you come back again
I will be out of my pain.
the morning is soft it is sweet
bye bye my worries, lets never meet
I have started writing
it is better than fighting
what I write is rubbish
because i am foolish
I don't want to cry
it is better to try
I am now moving ahead
this is my First Step

now dat i have been left alone by her, here i am back again..
so i am suppose to write something for her
but i dont know what to write .
who is her ?
she is the shadow of my imagination
she is a part of me which i dont know existed until i met her , she is very special to me .she is the one who doesnt want me to be but just lets me be myself with her .she will argue she will fight
she will demand , she will do all that and more, she will just make me suffer but in the end she is the one who loves me and her love is enough for me to bare it all .
what is love ?
some would say love is suffering and many would agree.
only for this reason people think love to be bad cause it makes us suffer. Its is really ignorant to think of love this way. True that it makes us suffer but it also makes us strong. Suffering is just a part of life, part of growing up, making a place for yourself. For those who are afraid to suffer, perish just like that as the castle made of sand in a gust of wind blowing it away. Nothing is for ever not even love & so there is heart break.
love as i put it just a name given to a very entwined relationship between two individuals who are part of that relationship by choice. every time every thing is not in accordance with us. when this happens we need to adjust ourselves according to the situation, yes ther has to be compromise between both the parties, And if this doesn't happen then there is a fallout.
The relationship suffers, hearts break. Its ego that doesnt allow us to make the necessary adjustments so we ourself are to blame for it . so if it is our own doing why dont we stop it ? why do we let our self suffer . The truth is subconsciously we are traind to suffer from the very moment of our birth. The mother who gives birth know how much she had to suffer, but the joy of being a mother has made the suffering insignificant.
All the pain and all the suffering we go through is just for that moment of joy tha moment of glory in some cases which doesnt even last more then a second or so. but we all are willing to endure it ..

cause we all are in love, cause we all know how to love , cause we love to be loved ..

love is just love nothing else..
I would suffer a thousand lives for tha one moment of glory ..one joy ..enough for a life time ..

some day..

Some day you will realize,
When you will open your eyes,
I may be a fool, I may be crazy.
But your knowledge, about me is still hazy.
You may be clever, you may be smart,
Wait until your life starts.
You are confident, no doubt
It does not matter if I am out
I will get together and come back
Like a weasel fighting a snake
I am a survivor, I am a fighter
I am a thinker, now I am a writer
Writing is the best thing I could have done
Reading my thoughts gives me fun
Still something is missing, something is gone.
Being with all my friends I still feel alone.
I really wish we all could be one
Then you think what life would be fun.

why i love you so

"Why I love you so"
I will be, will be always crazy,
Spontaneous, surprising, deliberate, hazy
Mysteries of mind,
Conditions of heart,
Tears of eyes,
Essence of life,
The reason for which
May never be known
For who ever tried is
Only lost to the cause
Of the great cause for
It is to remain
A very big question ?
Yes why, why I love you so
For, I may never know
For I tried to reason
By my mind, a treason
By heart left me low.
Yet here I am,
Staggering, tiresome slow,
With questions, answers
To which I don’t know.
And the quest is not
To get the ease
But to gain the pain
And make you please.
For I also know,
In nooks and corners,
There I saw
Light in your heart
Keeping you varied
Of danger to start
A fire which will
Not be sustained, for
Fate tries to kill
The flames of love,







So we need it to grow
By this slow
Process, make it pass
The test of time, for my
Love, love isn’t love
Just for wanting and
Belonging, but for
Sacrifice and selflessness
Is love, what it is
The expression of life
For it holds the beauty
That makes life beautiful
Which you made for me
And now you know
Why I love you so
For where there is faith
There is no room for reason
But to the doubt in your mind
For which you, let there be
No doubt, for mere words are
Not a proof, but the proof will be
Given by sands of time, in
Time when the moment arrives
Then you will come to know
"Why I love you so"

imperfection personified

I am just like 'This' .

how much meaning can one word hold ?
what is this ?
This is utter stupidity
This is maddness
This is a lie
This is nogood
This is having fun
This is life
This is love
This is god
This is .. well i can go on and on but there wuld be no end to the list..

just dat This is how I am.
blha blha ..

[to be contd]

my dream a nightmare

I have woken up to realise I was dreaming. It was so real , and at that very moment when I was about to crash in the hard concrete floor & end every thing ; I wake up to the reality.
Now I am trying to recollect my dream which is very vauge, so what was it ?
It seemed like the very place I have been born into , but it was different . every one i knew , every thing i knew was all there but it was all odd.
All was made up, made up all to my liking , all to my wish, all in accordance to me .
Every thing is suppose to be great, its a perfect world for me;
So is it perfect ?
Sure you must think it has to be perfect ,but if it was so perfect then why did i have to take that step , that leap which sent me free falling to the conctere below, made me want to end everything .
And yes it did end , not the way i wanted it to be , it has left a mark on me
So it ended by my attempt to end my life so shuld i still call it a dream or was it a nightmare..

this is my first post

the start is always the toughest, the rest is all smooth sailing, but ever considered why it is so ?
for me this is going to be a learning experience. there is always a first time for some thing like this is the first time for me as a blogger, after which it want be the same. to all my blogger friends i want to extend my hand and open my mind to ideas , for you are the ones who will be enriching me with new ideas , make me grow .
over year i have found that my mind has been full of rubbish, now here is a place to dump the garbage in clear out the cobb web .