Lost

I am totally lost in your thought. I believe you are the one person I can be with for the rest of my life without the fear of losing interest. With each passing day my belief is getting stronger and stronger.

But you are right.  You don't feel the same about me. And I totally understand why.
I lack the qualities which you possess. I am a very simple person. I don't understand a lot of thing. I certainly don't understand you in many ways.

But this is my first time when I have met someone like you. Though we have not met in person. After knowing you the way I do, it does not matter that much. Now its just a formality. I hope your prespective about me changes when we meet. And I hope it changes for good. Because if I lose you at this stage of my life then I don't know what I will do. I am even afraid to think of the consequences.

My day and night is you.
My darkness and light is you.
My heart and its beat is you.
My dream and desire is you.
My passion and fire is you.
My sorrows and pleasure is you.
My island and treasure is you.

I am lost without you.

Am I okay ?

Death seems to be the only option to make this pain go away. This felt like a heart attack but eventually turned out to be a heartbreak. I don't know why I am feeling so heartbroken.  Why am I feeling this lose ?

Nothing that drastic has happened between us.  You have been the way you always have been. Nothing seems to have changed for you. But I have fallen into this pit of love. I am just surprised how I ended down here.

If only you had been angry. It wouldn't have been so hard on me. But your cold calmness has left this shrilling effect on me.  You do not realise what power you hold on me. Or maybe you do but are afraid to exercise it. Or simply you do not care about it.  Either ways I am left powerless and helpless.

definitely I am not okay..