Saturday, October 17, 2020

Marooned

every now and then I find myslef lost. It is a daily struggle to keep up with life. to be very honest, life itself has been dragging me along for sometime now.

my mind is sullen, broken. so is my heart. either one in a working condition is a must to keep me driving through life. but here I am drifting clueless towards an unknown fate. 

I am not afraid to die. Death would be kind of a liberation. many years ago I told someone my biggest fear was to end up alone. now I am not even afraid of that. I have sucessfully managed to cut of so many people. over a period of time I have become good at it. 

this world seems a very lonely place. even when you are surrounded by people its so empty. maybe having people around makes it worst. 

love is a solution to problems which it own creats. self love is true love indeed. but then intelligence and consciences are like termites eating away into your existence. I can't even believe in the idea of god anymore. 

the real problem starts when you start seeing through people. it creeps them out. no one wants to be around a creep. their secrets are not safe.  

what is darkness ? in simple terms it is unknow, unfathomable. the light can reach only so far. anything and everything beyond light is darkness. 

hope is a vessel which allows us a passage through this darkness. maybe I need more humbling experiences to get my feet to the ground. That is something I really miss. I want to find my anchor.... 

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