20/11

My Dear beloved

Good morning!

Hope my letter finds you well

It has been about 17 hrs since I directly communicated with you. I am sorry if you have not yet seen my other blogpost. That post is suppsoe to explain my abrupt disappearances. That is my hope, but if not then I fear what might go through your head. I know it will indeed make you feel sad to not to see my dm, neither in the night or in the morning.It is a small thing, but in the past few days I made it a point to wish you good night & good morning - I had a streak going on and now that has broken. It is so easy to equaten & compare all men together. All men are pigs. I am one too, but I am still unique in my own way. 

We are extreme opposites and they attract when it comes to a relationship. That is the only explanation I have for us coming together. You give me hope of a bright future together. But you are also from a very advanced generation. Gen Z people are amazing when compared to millennial peson like me. I being from the first year of my generation have struggled with everything as I have been too much into it. 

I am sorry, I am letting your thoughts run free in my mind. I shouldn't take you so seriously but I still do and here I am making a blog post in the morning. 

Take care & study hard!

If you need me, you know where to find me... 

Love you

The choice was made

Love is not a cookie in a jar, if the jar is empty i can get another one. letting go is easier said than done. especially for me. love doesnt actually matter or changes even if the person whom you love doesnt care for your love cause they have already found the love of their life. i dont think i am crazy when i say "I love you".

In my reality you are just a mirage which appears in the desert, giving a false hope to the wonderer that he has been saved alas if only you where just a mirage. as i come to discover you certainly are very much true and are very far of from me still being near. you yourself are on a journey of selfdiscovery. what got best of me was your curiosity about me. you have been kind and affectionate to me and i just want to return the favor. you dont talk to me and i have been adrift. I know how wonderful it feels to love someone and be loved in return and i dont want to cut into your joy. I would really like to see you happy and laughing all the time. i am in love with your laughater. There not much i can do , but it doesnt stop me from doing what i can.