Inertia

Monday, November 24, 2025

introspect

I am sorry. the previous post I made was in such a bad taste. It is emphasizing on something which I really don't need to push you. As much as I know you, you are already putting in good amount of your time in studying. So I am not going to talk about it any more.

But I am here to talk about one of the very basic human need. I believe everyone is driven by it. There is a whole industry thriving on it. You guessed it right, it is ineed food.

And today I want to be more specific and talk about sambar rice. It is a staple food in south India. i have listened to many praises of this combination of sambar & rice. i am very selective with my food. That is the reason I have never had sambar rice outside. I have always associated sambar with Idli, vada or Dosa. Both idli & Dosa are derived from rice but somehow I missed to have this combination. Before today I only had sambar rice once and that too was of my own making.it was only the second time when I had sambar rice, But it was even better than how it was the last time I had it. It just tasted amazing so I had to write about it

Study

study...

Sunday, November 23, 2025

Aaj ka khana

Did I tell you I am a good cook ?

With each day I am getting better at it.

I enjoy cooking, specially when the end result turns out to be good. Though it kills me that I can't share it anyone.

And now I can just share it here with you.

Saturday, November 22, 2025

Every face has a story

It has already been many weekends since I did some actualy cleaning. So, today I gathered all my will and started to pick up things.It is always embarrassing to think how messy my depression pad would look to another person. I feel sorry for my maid who has to go through this daily.

Today she took the day off so it was one less day for her suffering. I know this is not the the way to live. I feel that what I am doing is wrong and still I can't help myself. It is true that I need to get therapy. But I am just delaying the inevitable.but I am on the path of a slow and steady recovery. hopefully I will get better and that day I will switch from survival mode to growth mode.

So I open the cupboard and find this bag which is full of stuff. There were papers, color pens, geometry box, oil pastels, dairy & a drawing book.I Immediately took the book and colors and gave a face to my thought...

Food for thought

Weekends are always slow to start. I like to stay in bed as long as I can. I usually never have any plans. generally I am always alone. Whatever I am doing I mostly do it alone. I moved to Bangalore just to avoid everyone back home. there everyone has someone, except me. But in all honesty the problem lies with me. It is me who is overthinking and making a normal situation weird.

You are an unexpected variable.with whatever you have told me about yourself, I should be afraid of you. You are rich, powerful and privileged. But you are also young, energetic & curious about me. You are your own person. You are pursuing your career and you have your own ambition. You want to live and not just live but you want to be alive. You want to be loved and you want to love.

And now I am overthinking "about us" and I know you do to.

Anyways here is the picture of the roti sabji I cooked today. i am a really damn cook.I love my cooking.

And now I back to this song -

"गुजर तोह जाएगी तेरे बगैर भी लेकिन...

बोहोत उदास बहुत बेकरार गुजरेगी"

https://youtu.be/S-EmrosJbB0?si=lYuY8ufdGDkgw_yB

Friday, November 21, 2025

TGIF

Good morning!

The cycle from my sleep cycle has gone missing. not sure if it is love or work or both or something which I haven't considered yet.

one more day has gone by.each passing day makes me feel I am closer to you.

Knowledge can be liberating and burdening at the same time. Its just like the two sides of a coin.

I took the pause as a sign to allow you space & time to do whatever else you have to do. In the current situation, preparation for your test is important.

I am stupid in general,but also brilliant at some things. Due to this, there is this contradiction. I made the blogposts but decided against sending you an email. My thought was that you would come here on your break and see where I am at. l also thought that you are unable to DM me since my account is blocked.

You proved me wrong again, the same way you have been proving me wrong for a while now. What else can I say ? If loving you are wrong then I want to be wrong.

Bye

Thursday, November 20, 2025

20/11

My Dear beloved

Good morning!

Hope my letter finds you well

It has been about 17 hrs since I directly communicated with you. I am sorry if you have not yet seen my other blogpost. That post is suppsoe to explain my abrupt disappearances. That is my hope, but if not then I fear what might go through your head. I know it will indeed make you feel sad to not to see my dm, neither in the night or in the morning.It is a small thing, but in the past few days I made it a point to wish you good night & good morning - I had a streak going on and now that has broken. It is so easy to equaten & compare all men together. All men are pigs. I am one too, but I am still unique in my own way.

We are extreme opposites and they attract when it comes to a relationship. That is the only explanation I have for us coming together. You give me hope of a bright future together. But you are also from a very advanced generation. Gen Z people are amazing when compared to millennial peson like me. I being from the first year of my generation have struggled with everything as I have been too much into it.

I am sorry, I am letting your thoughts run free in my mind. I shouldn't take you so seriously but I still do and here I am making a blog post in the morning.

Take care & study hard!

If you need me, you know where to find me...

Love you