cup of tea

At high speeds it becomes difficult to control bike if some one or some thing comes in front of you.
many a times i feel like i will end up crashing into some vehical some day. when i am riding i have visions of it happening & i am pretty much aware of the risk, but cant help it. its the only way i know to ride & its fun too.
i do believe in taking calculated risks, thats one reason i wont let my bike go out of control , the rest depends on the condition of road and the other factor such as drivers/riders/people crossing road.
there are too many things going in my mind so its hard to put down a clear picture of what i am trying to say here.
a dozen days went by ,but the flavor of the tea still remains. may be there was something in the special tea which the mausi made for us.
last saturday i was on the same road moving towards vasai, but things had changed drastically in just a week. my beautiful and elegant ride partner was replaced by a hefty jay. jay was talking to me but my ears where not listening, my mind was just thinking of her, how wonderful it felt to be with her - "take a U turn here" jay was literally shouting in my ears. I jerked and so did the bike with me making jay shouted a little more. finally i managed to make him stop and concentrated back on the road.
i have to tell a truth here that i was missing the tea i had that evening and i was missing her more.
now i am just waiting for my life changing cup of tea.